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Accepting the Things I Cannot Change

I think my dog is dying. I feel so helpless. All I can do is fidget and pace, and that changes nothing. This morning I cuddled him and said, “There are tears in my future.” I take him to the vet this afternoon. I suspect it won’t go well. One of the downsides to owning…

I think my dog is dying. I feel so helpless. All I can do is fidget and pace, and that changes nothing. This morning I cuddled him and said, “There are tears in my future.” I take him to the vet this afternoon. I suspect it won’t go well.

One of the downsides to owning a pet is the difference in life spans. Even if, by some miracle, there’s an easy fix for my dog’s situation, there will be tears in my future. Unless I get hit by a crosstown bus, I’m going to outlive him, and there’s not a thing I can do about it.

Discussing this with a friend, she reminded me of the Serenity Prayer.

Serenity

This is sage advice. There really is no point in getting worked up about the things I cannot change. But dammit, no, I don’t accept this. I just don’t. So I guess I have the “courage” and “wisdom” parts down, but Serenity… ah, Serenity… she eludes me.

13 responses to “Accepting the Things I Cannot Change”

  1. Daniël Bezuidenhout Avatar
    Daniël Bezuidenhout

    Hopefully your dog is much better now…? I have always wondered what people mean when they saythings like ” ahhh h’s in a better place now”… Where is that place? Any better than my arms?

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    1. The View from a Drawbridge Avatar
      The View from a Drawbridge

      I really expected to have to put him to sleep today, but he seems to be rallying. He’s voluntarily eating a little bit, and no longer vomiting. It feels like we’re still heading toward that iceberg, but the titanic is slowly trying to swerve. Wish us luck.

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      1. Daniël Bezuidenhout Avatar
        Daniël Bezuidenhout

        Is he very old?

      2. The View from a Drawbridge Avatar
        The View from a Drawbridge

        He’s 12, but his breed usually makes it to about 15.

  2. lyn sutton Avatar
    lyn sutton

    The serenity will come when you’re ready…in the meantime know that I and your faithful followers are here for you with opened arms and hearts.

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    1. The View from a Drawbridge Avatar
      The View from a Drawbridge

      Thank you so much, Lyn. He’s doing a little tiny bit better today. I had the whole veterinary office in tears yesterday. But at the very least his downward spiral is slowing, and the vet and I are seeing a tiny glimmer of hope.

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      1. lyn sutton Avatar
        lyn sutton

        You definitely had me in tears. How’s he doing today?

      2. The View from a Drawbridge Avatar
        The View from a Drawbridge

        Awww, even better! Gaining some weight back, and actually greets me at the door when I come in. He still has a long way to go, but I’m starting to feel really optimistic.

  3. pouringmyartout Avatar
    pouringmyartout

    so sorry…

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    1. The View from a Drawbridge Avatar
      The View from a Drawbridge

      Awww, thanks. I actually think he may just pull through! Not out of the woods yet, but making progress.

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      1. pouringmyartout Avatar
        pouringmyartout

        yay

  4. laupovey Avatar
    laupovey

    I really do hope your dog gets better. Sounds like he is making good progress. Keep us updated with his recovery!

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    1. The View from a Drawbridge Avatar
      The View from a Drawbridge

      Thank you! So far, so good. He still has a lot of weight to gain back, but he’s acting more like his perky self again.

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