Free-Floating Fury

Right around the time that Trump got elected, I noticed that I was using the “angry” icon in response to a lot of my friend’s Facebook posts about what was happening. I don’t think of myself as an angry person in general, but so many outrageous things are going on in the world these days that it’s hard not to react with a bit of ire. At the time, though, I thought I could afford to be angry.

This situation is an anomaly, right? Surely it won’t last long. Surely our collective anger will force politicians to act with more integrity, even if it isn’t sincere on their parts. And if anger is what it takes to get me up and moving and protesting and trying to improve things, then so be it.

But very recently, I’ve noticed a shift within me. I’m not using the “angry” icon as much. Now I’m using the “sad” icon. I’m tired. I’m starting to get cynical. I’m starting to think we can’t force people to do the right thing. They have an agenda that is not going to budge, in spite of its destructive insanity. I think I underestimated just how immovable this evil force would be.

So now my anger comes out in other ways. In the privacy of my car, I find myself cursing at stupid drivers. I am suffering fools even less gladly than in days of yore. I’m fidgeting more. I’m eating more pizza and ice cream. None of these things are positive shifts, but I’m frankly feeling powerless and bitter. It feels like the bad guys are winning.

I know now that this is a marathon, not a sprint, and one should pace oneself, but I’m running out of ideas, energy, and optimism. I don’t know what to do anymore. And that’s what they want. So maybe I really should go back to being angry.

It’s hard to live in a world where “sad” and “angry” seem to be your only two choices. I need more “like”, “love”, “ha ha”, and “wow” in my world.

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15 thoughts on “Free-Floating Fury

  1. Elaine

    I am still angry Ask Sim. Even so, I feel your anguish. I thought it could never happen..someone so ill suited for an exalted position would surely at least behave appropriately when assuming the role.. surely when he began flouting ethics and laws and showing he did not respect the Constitution (or women,gold star families, widows, or anything resembling truth) someone in congress would put him in his place. But no one did. Knowing he is stacking the courts with people who actively state they are against equality, against women’s rights, against anything outside their very narrow view of “normal” and that those people are being appointed for life, is truly frightening. I could go on and on and on… but I too am feeling tired and overwhelmed. I have donated and written to congress members without any apparent effect and steamed, fumed and shouted at the walls. My hope now lies in Mr Mueller and his team. Resist. Remove. Peace.

  2. lyn sutton

    Barb, focus on that light at the end of the chaotic tunnel. It’s widening due to consistent voices of anger raised in protest and outrage. There are far more people actively opposing this insanity than the ones creating it want you to believe.(We must ignore ridiculous attempts to distract and deflect.)
    There are things to like/love in spite of the pain. It’s created a common cause that unites those that usually sit alone, on the sidelines, hidden by a cloak of ignorant fear, to fight for. It’s awakened silent voices, sleeping minds and even inspired the young to engage. It’s slowly reshaping the news media, for the better, and is making us more proactive in protecting and respecting all of our rights. (We must continue to resist outrageous attempts to divide us with fear.)

      1. lyn sutton

        Just because I understand that glass is breakable doesn’t mean I can’t appreciate it’s contents while it remains in tact. Besides, you’re there lifting us most days, so I can broaden my perspective from realist to optimist to lift you when needed. Glad you found your wow. 🙂

  3. lyn sutton

    There’s also much to laugh about…the hair, narcissistic bragging and exaggerations, bigly, the bankruptcies, desperate flip flops, 2 year old temper tantrums and the……..
    Many have turned this insanity into hilarious routines, jokes and satire for comedic relief. (I’m hopeful this cathartic laughter will help heal ulcers I’ve developed since 11-8.) Don’t give up the fight…but do give up the sugar and carbs.They will zap your energy and fog your brain and we really need your energetic, insightful input. (We must laugh through the tears or they will win). 🙂

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