The random musings of an autistic bridgetender with entirely too much time on her hands.
What Keeps Me Up at Night
Yeah, I’ve done that mind-grind thing where I keep worrying about something and try in vain to come up with a solution. I have done my fair share of stressing out over finances, jobs, relationships, and conversations that I’m dreading. I’ve even stayed up to care for sick people and pets.
But you know what really keeps me up at night? Excitement. I spend a lot of time tossing and turning and smiling at the possibilities. I can rarely sleep just before a trip to someplace I’ve never been, for example. I can just imagine what it will be like. I also thrill to new experiences, new connections, and the opportunity to learn.
Many is the night I’ve spent staring at the ceiling, knowing that I’m about to receive the gift of newness. That’s my favorite gift of all. It doesn’t take up space in your tool shed. You don’t have to dust it. It’s usually not tangible. But you’ll be able to revel in its memory for the rest of your life.
There is nothing quite like the first time you do something, see something or realize something. Beginnings are awesome. Change is wonderful just as often as it is dreadful. The anticipation of something can be every bit as amazing as the thing itself.
Anticipation is what robs me of my sleep!
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As a child, sleep was the enemy. It robbed me of precious moments I could have been doing, exploring, learning something new. Seems I haven’t outgrown that struggle with the body’s need to recharge and this mind’s inability to wait, which results in ineffective sleep. But here’s the ultimate form of anticipation worth losing sleep over… https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BELWbkyOVPQ
Indeed. I’ve been singing that song all day. But on the other hand, while I used to resist sleeping as a child, now I would chop off a digit for the opportunity for even 15 extra minutes of precious sleep. I love sleep even more than pizza.
As a child, sleep was the enemy. It robbed me of precious moments I could have been doing, exploring, learning something new. Seems I haven’t outgrown that struggle with the body’s need to recharge and this mind’s inability to wait, which results in ineffective sleep. But here’s the ultimate form of anticipation worth losing sleep over… https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BELWbkyOVPQ
Indeed. I’ve been singing that song all day. But on the other hand, while I used to resist sleeping as a child, now I would chop off a digit for the opportunity for even 15 extra minutes of precious sleep. I love sleep even more than pizza.
I miss real pizza…serious dietary restrictions. If you had to give it up you might be willing to give up a few nights sleep for a slice. 🙂
Hmmm. Yeah, maybe. But only sporadically.