The View from a Drawbridge

The random musings of a bridgetender with entirely too much time on her hands.

The older some of us get, the more our birthdays remind us of our mortality. And time seems to pass so much more quickly as we age, so the hits just keep on coming. Today I’m another year older but at least I’m not deeper in debt.

But, unlike other years, when that mortality sledgehammer has hit me right as (lucky me) I’m exhausted from being at the tail end of the holidays, this year I’m actually feeling really grateful. As I speed toward what is quite likely the last quarter of my life, I’m viewing every birthday as a precious gift. Approaching one more of these anniversaries is something to be savored.

There are many reasons for this mindset, not the least of which is that I feel, more and more, that I have something to live for and lots to look forward to. Moving to the right place and marrying the right person really helps in that regard. Also, my hard work and personal growth is paying off. (So if you’re young and frustrated, please do not give up. You can do this.)

Because I feel that way, I’m exercising regularly for the first time in my life. And I’m actually enjoying it. That is unexpected. But since I have so much to look forward to, I want to experience it in the most fighting fit form that I possibly can. I still have mountains that I want to climb. (Well, hills, probably. I mean, let’s be realistic.)

Another thing that has made me stop and reassess is that I recently realized that I’ve already lived longer than my oldest sister had a chance to do. Even at the time, I knew that 54 was way too young to die, but now that I’ve blown past that, I really, really know it. I’m relatively young. I have a lot that I still want to do. It’s horrific to think that it all could end so soon. I’d feel cheated.

But who knows? Maybe I will always feel that way, when the time comes. I lack that perspective still. (If I continue to blog into my 80’s, I’ll be sure to let you know.)

I’ve also learned the priceless lesson that life is very fragile and can be taken away with no notice, so every single day should be viewed as a gift. What will you do with your gift today? Being surrounded by a raging pandemic has only reinforced that mindset for me. I am so grateful for every day.

So I think that from now on, rather than viewing birthdays as one more year closer to the end, I’ll think of them as an extension of my expiration date. They are a renewal of the contract of life, as it were. Yay! Three cheers for another year! Woo hoo!

I can’t wait to find out what’s inside!

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7 thoughts on “A Birthday Renewal

  1. CalicoJack says:

    Happy Birthday!

    I must admit, I’ve been despairing of getting older, but I like the idea of celebrating and appreciating each birthday because there are fewer left than have past. It makes me happier to be getting older.

    Huzzah!
    Jack

    1. Glad to be of service! 🙂 Long time no type, Jack.

      1. CalicoJack says:

        Howdy Barb!

        I’ve been putting a little extra work at making the rounds and checking on the blogs I follow AND leaving a sign of my visit, especially a comment.

        It was good to catch up with the View and know that you’re doing well.

        Huzzah!
        Jack

  2. Mr. Happy says:

    Happy Birthday Dear Writer –

    I enjoy sharing this journey with you.

  3. Lyn says:

    Happy Rebirth Day as you renew your contract with life. I like to think I’m newly born with each extension and given a clean slate to write my next chapter of life upon. I don’t fear the ending of my story though because it might be the beginning of a new existence beyond my imagining. I think that would be the ultimate gift.

    1. It would be, but I’m hedging my bets by doing the best I can to enjoy this life as long as possible! Enjoy all your extensions!

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