The View from a Drawbridge

The random musings of a bridgetender with entirely too much time on her hands.

Yeah, I’ve done that mind-grind thing where I keep worrying about something and try in vain to come up with a solution. I have done my fair share of stressing out over finances, jobs, relationships, and conversations that I’m dreading. I’ve even stayed up to care for sick people and pets. But you know what …

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The older I get, the more people I know who are mourning the loss of a partner. Along with that, inevitably, comes the mourning of the loss of your future. Because couples make plans. That’s what they do. They have an image of what they’re working toward. When your partner dies or you get divorced, …

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“So, why didn’t you do it like this?” She asked. “Because it never occurred to me,” I replied. I can’t count the number of times I’ve had a similar conversation, both as the inquisitor and as the embarrassed person who failed to find the obvious solution. It makes you wonder how many choices are out …

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“Hey, where was that place that you got all the cool used doors and grates and glass blocks for the house you used to own here in Jacksonville?” He asked. “Burkhalters,” I replied, and a tsunami of nostalgia washed over me. I absolutely love salvage yards. I don’t know why more people don’t take advantage …

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God, but I love the internet. It introduces me to things I didn’t previously know existed on an almost daily basis. There is so much in this world that can shock or amaze or awe. Just the other day I happened to go to the Bing website and was presented with this gorgeous picture: Whoa. …

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Recently someone I love very much told me that she had attempted suicide a couple of times in the past year. This broke my heart because I had no idea she was suffering in silence. Having struggled with depression my whole life, I know what it’s like to want to throw off that thick blanket …

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Yesterday I wrote about the many circles of hell the average woman on this planet has to pass through. Believe me, this is not the first time I’ve contemplated this topic, and at one point I was doing well enough to consider trying to help. It’s the personal stories that get to me the most. …

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I like to wear crazy, colorful socks. That way if I find that I’m taking myself too seriously, I can always look down at my feet and regain a sense of emotional balance. I have always been drawn to people who are different. Whether it’s pink hair, or strange clothes, or simply thinking outside the …

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