I’ve Had It

Ever since I wrote Me Too, I’ve been in a foul mood. Until then, I had never listed all the outrageous things that men have done to me in my lifetime. I’d never looked at them in one big, steaming pile. Now I don’t think I’ll ever be able to avert my eyes again. And since then I’ve thought of even more criminal behavior.

And then, to make matters worse, learning about Al Franken and Charlie Rose makes me want to vomit. These were men I looked up to. Charlie Rose, in particular, has always struck me as a man of integrity. Ugh. What’s next? Is someone going to out Mr. Rogers or Bob Ross? I don’t think I could stand it. I might jump off my bridge.

I mean, I expect stuff like this from Trump. (And shame on me for helping to perpetuate this warped culture like that.) But are all men animals? Is testosterone such a heady hormone that we’re not even safe when wearing Kevlar?

I know it’s never a good thing to tar an entire group with one fetid brush, but seriously, this is too much. I am done with men for the foreseeable future. The thought of even throwing my hat back in the dating ring makes me sick. The cons of having a man in my life far outweigh the pros as far as I’m concerned, and it will take one heck of a man to convince me otherwise.

This public fury has been a long time coming. And the sad thing is that I have absolutely no idea how to purge it from my system. It’s like we’ve all, men and women alike, been injected with a poison that we can never metabolize. That’s no way to live.

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9 thoughts on “I’ve Had It

  1. lyn sutton

    Welcome back. You’ve emerged from the foggy amnesia of a dissociative fugue that P.T.S.D. uses to help us bear repetitive trauma. How else do we continue to function under such conditions? ( I forgot one of my worst violations for ten years, remembering it only when I was strong enough to face it.)
    Once cumulative damage is recognized and denial’s removed, anger is expected. With so much media exposure and support, it feels safe to deal with the whole, big, steaming pile now. Hopefully an antidote can be found before the anger consumes us.

      1. lyn sutton

        Having been violated by some very respected men, nothing can shock me now. Difficult as it is to have the illusions exposed to the blinding light of reality, this is needed to balance the scales for victims. It’s good the perpetrators, that thought they’d escaped accountability, are now feeling the fear of justice waiting to be served. All of our futures will be better for it.

  2. Carole Lewis

    I am so disgusted. I actually heard a couple very close friends turn off the NEWS saying “What is all this crap. those women need to get over it.” IT has been happening forever it is harmless.”

    There is no excuse for stupid. Years of respect flew out the window and the friendship is very shaky indeed.

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