Tag: panic

  • The Right to Breathe

    When I was about 11 years old, a guy that had a crush on my sister went swimming with us. He was about 18, and his hormones were such that I’m sure he viewed me as a nuisance, just another obstacle blocking his path to the Promised Land. At one point my sister went off…

  • An Absence of Wrong Things

    I’ve discovered that it’s never a good idea to try to solve the world’s problems, or even my own, when I’m tired. Or hungry. Or lonely. Or angry. Or scared. I was pretty much all of the above the other day, and I had a moment (a few hours, actually) of existential panic. I messaged…

  • Schooled by a Sacred Lion

    I’m in a state of transition and that’s putting it mildly. New job, new (to me) car, new city where I have never been and know not a soul. An epic drive across the country, seeing places I’ve never seen. Hurtling toward the unknown. What an adventure. What a trip! Most of the time I’m…

  • Bridge Nightmares

    It happened again last night. I had the nightmare that never fails to make me sit straight up in bed, bathed in a cold sweat with tears flowing down my cheeks. Whew. That hasn’t happened in a while. Post Traumatic Stress is such a lovely experience.  In this case it‘s caused by an incident several…

  • A Lesson in Subtext

    The other day someone asked me why I keep a rusty old jar opener in the gadget drawer in my kitchen. She was probably expecting a short answer. She should have known better. That jar opener may not look like much, but it means a lot to me. My mother gave it to me the…

  • A Global Perspective. Get One.

    Well, it is looking more and more like they’re going to do away with full time positions where I work so they won’t have to provide us with health care. If that happens, I am in deep trouble. I honestly don’t know how I’ll make it. And I’m hearing that same story from more and…

  • Don’t Get Your Knickers in a Twist

    Is it just me, or is everyone experiencing a spate of mounting hysteria? I know the economy is bad, and there are wars and abuses and crime and tragedy. I know that there are plenty of causes and issues that need to be addressed. The four horses of the apocalypse are being kept quite busy,…